Rings around the moon.

This recording was made in 2019.  My husband... I was still trying to process what had happened - how he had stayed behind after work to have sex with a colleague. When I made this recording he had promised that the relationship was over. Except? It really didn't feel like it! And I needed to know the truth.  I didn't feel loved, I certainly didn't feel valued. I also felt terror. I had believed that I'd only got through what had happened because I knew that I was loved....if that wasn't so, if I wasn't loved, then how could I continue... The audio recordings were instrumental in my recovery.  Truth creates choice. I'd urge anyone going through awful experiences to make the recordings, keep them safe, and when it's all over - listen to them. It is truly a difficult thing to face, and it took me many listens to begin to hear that one person requesting emotional truth from another, isn't out of order... This lesson segments into what came next! [+] Loo...

It has been four years and I don't know where he is. I know he works at the same place. I assume that he is living with her. I believe that he is playing happy families - again. Having shed his role of dad for his own son, to playing daddy for her younger (not yet psychotic)  kids. This is his tried and tested method for being a better person, better than the man he has replaced. And who has he replaced? Her husband and himself - by stepping into a different family - again. I have fantasies of following his car to find out. Perhaps I'm so wrong. Perhaps he is heartbroken and living alone, swigging whiskey and still reading Jack Reacher books. Or perhaps he has become someone I could respect? I have three friends who would love to help me to do this!  I'd wear a headscarf, and different glasses and sit in the passenger seat. Would he notice? As an unfamiliar car shadows his Golf? Does he still have the Golf? A blue Golf. He bought it just before leaving.  God damn!  W...