The curse.
Just when I thought it was all over. I honestly don't know what to do about what is happening. But this madness has to stop. Psychosis is understandable, it is human, it's fierce and terrifying, but it is immediate and alive. This - the thing I'm trying to deal with here and now is way worse...and I don't know how to deal with it. I fought one round with it, and left my home burning (!) no, nothing was burning. I simply let him have everything, didn't ask for a penny. I gave my first husband a narrative that side-stepped his lethal victimhood and desire to blame everyone except his abuser. I kept my daughters alive, I managed to create another, this time a safe life, and on we went. People were amazed at what a happy family we were. Three children home-ed, my eldest stayed at school. Everyone got into university doing a course they loved... Then service user broke all his personal rules, took cocaine and anything else going. Stressed himself out. Felt totally ashame...
